It's about that time again...
If we were having coffee this morning, it would be a strong cup of french press with a little cream. Strong cause my child still isn't sleeping through the night. But, it's ok. He's still my favoritest thing.
If we were having coffee this morning, I would have to be honest with you. The last few months have left me a little frayed. I feel like I've been sprinting from one big project to the next, and I had to step back from a few things and take a break. Thus, the lack of posts. Sometimes, exhaustion causes us to retreat back to the things that really matter (like naps and face-to-face convos) and it's been a busy, but quieter few days.
One of the best things I did was limit time on my phone. I removed my fb app and all my dumb games. (I still love you Candy Crush!!) Then, in the afternoons, I just turned my ringer up in case I got a call and put it away. Guys, I'm a little embarrassed to tell you what a difference it made. It opened up an extra hour or two everyday. *blush* I was able to read, clean, exercise, take Noah to the park... Nothing super exciting, but it was nice to have a few more minutes in my day.
If we were having coffee this morning, I would tell you Noah is nearly one. We are planning his first birthday bash, and I want to bawl my eyes out every time I think about it. How is my baby already 1 year old? How did we ever get along without him? Noah has made everything about our lives brighter. He loves the ocean, popsicles, books, escaping from his stroller, sharing his food, and his grandparents.
If we were having coffee this morning, I would ask you if you had read any good books recently. I've been binge reading all summer. When Noah takes his afternoon nap, I slip off into a good novel or cookbook. Some of the best books I read in June were The Book Thief, Wild, Tell the Wolves I'm Home, Extravagant Grace, On the Grill: Adventures in Fire and Smoke and Where'd You Go, Bernadette. Any of these titles would be worth your time, my friends. If you have any book recommendations, please please please leave a comment. I'm always looking for a good book.
I read Extravagant Grace with a book club that our church's women's ministry organized, and, boy, was it a fun ride. I really felt like Barbara Duguid unpacks the idea that "There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus." (Romans 8:1) And, while I didn't agree 100% with everything in the book, it did give me a lot of relief and a lot of compassion. It was a good reminder that God isn't surprised by my sin, and that is grace is unending. The pressure is off us because it is finished. (This doesn't mean we shouldn't strive for righteousness. It just means we should never walk in condemnation.) It also convicted me. So many times I've looked down on others because their sin was very public. Just because I neatly tuck my ugliness out of sight doesn't mean I am any less sinful. And, if God isn't surprised by my sin, why would I be surprised when sinners sin? Why am I so easily and readily offended by others? So disappointed in myself? This book left me with a lot to think about. I was so grateful for the women in my book club and all they brought to the table. Read it with a friend if you can!
If we were having coffee this morning, I'd tell you to catch Derrick on Netflix. Be forewarned. It starts slow and the language is a little rough, but it is honestly one of the best shows, movies, anything, we've ever watched. So human. So sweet. The Season 1 finale left me sobbing. It's just good television.
If we were having coffee this morning, I'd tell you that I am the luckiest. Every morning, in spite of the raw, real struggles, I am so happy to be married to my best friend and to be Noah's mom. Life isn't perfect or even anywhere near ideal, but it is lovely. This month, we will celebrate Noah's first birthday and our third wedding anniversary. And, at the end of the day, Jason and Noah are mine, and I am theirs.
If we were having coffee this morning, I would show you this pic, because even though I promised myself I wouldn't be one of those moms, I totally am. Sorry, not sorry.